Monday, October 29, 2007

Restless thoughts

Back at what turned out to be the low point of the breakup with the ex, when she called me specifically to tell me that she was seeing someone else – a doctor – my pal Meno gave me what turned out to be a mantra. I repeated it to myself without believing at the time: “She’s someone else’s problem now . . . she’s someone else’s problem now . . . she’s someone else’s problem now.” Last night I suffered from a bout of insomnia, and of course, my thoughts turned to her and to us, and I thought about certain things that she had done, and lies she had told me, and remembered a talk that we had at a sushi bar one time and all the bullshit she said which turned out to be bullshit, but I bought into it. Like plans for the future and crap like that. And I started to get all pissed off, even though I haven’t spoken to her for close to two months now. And then I thought: “She’s someone else’s problem now,” and I looked forward rather than backward, and I was able to put her out of my mind for the moment.


Jamm-o-rama said...

I like it! I am going to use it when I feel down about my ex if you don't mind.

Jack Gordon said...

I don't mind at all Jamm-o-lady. It's really, really hard to get through missing someone . . . if it helps someone even the smallest bit, then my blog will have been worth writing.

Unconscious said...

Like they always say, "no matter what, someone some where is tired of putting up with their shit"